New Year, Stronger You

I promised that this year, I would drop a blogpost for every month and I’m not about to start failing from the first month. Nope!

A few days into the year, I heard God ask me to detail my celibacy journey and as the procrastinator I am, I’m just getting to it. On the 6th of January, I celebrated my second year celibacy anniversary and I was so giddy with excitement. The outfit I wore to work that day got a few raised eyebrows and my coworker had to ask what was going on. It’s such a huge deal to me. You might be wondering why. Well, let’s get into it!

During my last birthday, one song was in my heart particularly and it really detailed my Christian journey.

My heart is full of gratitude

To You and no one else but You

Lord I’m here only by Your grace

Thank You Jesus for not giving up on me

Eze ebube, See how far You’ve brought me

Eze ebube, I’m so glad You found me worthy

I can see, I can tell and I know it’s Your grace

All my days I will sing Your praise

I look back and I don’t even recognise my old self. Like who??? Me??? What??? Wow! It’s quite surreal. For the longest, I was private about my past life cos I dealt with a lot of shame and guilt concerning the choices I made. However, I have come to realise that that’s only the devil trying to keep me down. Christ set me free and that means that I’m not a slave to any negative emotion. On that note, get ready to see a not so pretty part of me- My past.

When I was 13, I had my virginity taken from me. That’s another story but it’s not for today. I spent the next 10 years trapped in a cycle of fornication which I thought was sexual liberation then. However, a few months before my 23rd birthday, I started to feel immense guilt every time I would lay (not me writing historical romance ) with my then partner. I asked for some time off from sexual relations but you know how this devil can be. We continued a while after and in January 2021, I knew I was done.

I had joined a class on how to hear God and it detailed how to know when God was speaking to you. It was then that I realised that God had been speaking to me about celibacy for a while but because my mind was clouded with a lot of noise, I couldn’t accurately pick out my Father’s voice. One thing I want to establish is that God is always speaking to His children. You just have to know your shepherd’s voice. I spoke to my then partner about my decision and then, my celibacy journey started. The next instruction was for me to leave that relationship and I remember trying to bargain with God but e no gree 🤭. I left and from that moment, my life did not remain the same .I’m not saying that my ex is a wizard that was holding me back o. Edakun o!

I thirsted after righteousness and I wanted to know so much about God and my identity in Him. I had a pastor who never got tired of my questions. I became dedicated in my prayer, bible reading and study groups. I did not exactly have an accountability partner but I had my sister who had prayed for the total salvation of my soul for so long and hearing that I went back to my old life might have ended hers. That was my second greatest determination. “Which mouth would I use to tell my sister that I did this???”. Also, I realised that men aren’t really shii except the one specifically given to you by God plus I was not going to undo that amount of hardwork and self pride for a few moments of weakness. I guess my resolve was greater than my fleshy desires and with time, I learnt to subdue the flesh. E be mumu but e no go koba me.

The first thing I did was to avoid visitations. I stopped going to the houses of men (past lovers, people wey Dey enter my eye, people wey I Dey enter their eye, anything man sha) and I did not let them come to mine. Till now sef, I no Dey go man house except my very close friends that I trust with my life. The bible says flee from all appearances of evil and boy did I carry my slippers under my armpits running. With time, I noticed other triggers, explicit music content and overly sexual romance novels. I then became very careful about the kind of content I ingested. I would research books before downloading them (there are different ratings for romance novels) and I started listening to a lot of Christian music. I am not really a movie person so that was quite easy to filter. I was very particular about guarding my heart and mind.

Over time, these things became second nature to me. I still listen to secular music but they are mostly love songs with clean lyrics. Asake’s terminator had me in a chokehold last year but my Jesus has terminated that contract. I also go on yearly periods where I read strictly Christian romance novels. No matter the rating of a book that interests me, I stay away during that period. Right now, my life has gotten to the point where I’m looking for a celibate marriage because the thought of actually breaking my celibacy sets my heart running. My apostle don tell me sey I no serious but I know that what God cannot do, doesn’t exist.

Some of you might be wondering why the long story. Well, there’s someone reading this who has had the nudge for a while but is confused on how to go about it. This is for you. Daddy didn’t let me rest for weeks because you needed this blogpost as a resource material. He’s that intentional about you. I hope this makes your journey easier. Also remember, if you need an accountability partner, I’m here. I’ve been through it. I know how hard it can be. After 10 years, I woke up one day, said “not anymore” and I have stuck to it ever since. If I, a girl who was then scared that she was a nymphomaniac and would probably cheat on her husband can do it, I assure you that you can also.

Above all, I want you to know that I’m always rooting for you and I believe in you so much. A life of sexual purity and total submission is attainable and definitely worth it.

If you desire this gift of truth that comes with so much peace and joy, if you desire to know Jesus which you should because Angel G don Dey clean trumpet ooo, say this simple prayer while meaning it with every fibre of your being.

Lord Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God, that you died on the cross to rescue me from sin and death and to restore me to my Father. I choose now to turn from my sins and every part of my life that does not please you. I choose you. I give myself to you. Help me to live for you the rest of my life. Amen!

Welcome home!!!! Angels are definitely doing legwork in heaven just because of you! We are that happy over your decision. Please message me so I can follow up with you and tell you more about this family you just joined.

Finally and importantly, I love you all!

Remember, God has blessed you!