In Search of Johnny 🗺️🧭

For the past two years, I have been sad! I was immensely sad and lost interest in a lot of things, one of which was writing. While I earlier stopped being a consistent publisher on this blog, I was a consistent writer in my daily life. For the last 20 months, words evaded me. I could not string enough sentences together to explain the immense pain in my heart. This also meant that I could not be helped.

Well, I’m back and I am here promising you guys at least one blogpost per month. Unfortunately, I have grown past the era of wanting everyone to hear the inner musings of my mind. However, one blogpost per month seems doable. I know Subomi, Onize and Ore Adele-Fadipe will keep me accountable. If I refuse to be a published author, at least I can be a consistent writer.

On that note, welcome to a new dispensation! We go even harder this year!

When Yemi Alade broke out with that iconic tune of hers 12 years ago, we all danced and sang along. According to the song, she was following a "bottom barrel" man who did not in the least deserve Cynthia, Uche, Nene or the other unnamed women he was having relations with. Johnny was a real public menace, to say the least. Unlike the proverbial individual, I'm more interested in the concept of Johnny.

Five years ago, I started my journey to sexual purity, forsaking all others and walking confidently, albeit with baby steps, towards my God and King. I knew I couldn't continue living life the way I had been doing. The pain, depression, confusion, and anxiety were eating me alive. I needed more from life. I needed Him.

I remember the day I finally decided to follow God wholeheartedly. I had only one request. "I don't want to celebrate a 5-year anniversary, Lord. I want to be married before the 5th year and free to engage in marital activities.” Like the rookie I was, I didn't realise what His silence meant. In legal dealings, they say silence means agreement. One would think it's the same in the spiritual realm. Boy, was I wrong!

Today, I'm celebrating a journey that is definitely not easy but has been more rewarding and fulfilling than any orgasm could offer. A milestone that's commendable in itself, but has also led me to the most beautiful and important relationship I could ever have; one with my Father, who envelops me in His love.

I'm celebrating several moments in one. Moments that have led to clarity, peace of mind, and created a safe space for me in my body while protecting me from illnesses. I'm still not married, nor anywhere close to it. Johnny is yet to come, so I'm still single. While I'm ready to mingle, I've come to understand that marriage and its legal sexual relations were never the end goal - fulfilling God's call upon my life always was.

Living the life He has called me into is the most precious thing ever. Knowing who He calls me and seeing myself take active strides to be that person is such a joy to me. I say this with all confidence: a life with Christ is the best life you can live. A life actively living for Him is the most important decision you can and should make. God's standard on sexual purity is unchanging – keep the marriage bed undefiled and wait until marriage before having sex. Let every aspect of your life, including your speech and friendships, reflect your position in Him.

I know advice is easier given than implemented. However, I'm not just giving you arbitrary advice. I'm telling you about my past. I was so deep in sin that the only things I wasn't doing were murdering an adult or committing fraud personally. Yet, I'm here, making His name known across the Earth. He's using me to bring succour to people's hearts. He has raised me as a lighthouse for His gospel. He is working miracles through my hands and using me to show people the potency of His transformative power. If you think you're too far gone for Him to turn your life around, look at me! Christ died for all sinners, of whom I was among the chiefs. He started a good work in me and will complete it. I can brag about the efficacy of His work because I live in the power of His Spirit.

Please understand that it's never about making promises to Him but giving Him full permission to own your heart and work on it. He alone can keep you from stumbling and present you before Himself. He's not afraid of your weaknesses or shortcomings. He's not ashamed of you. Instead, He loves you and wants you to belong to Him. Don't be anxious-avoidant. Commit to Him!

PLEASE ACCEPT CHRIST INTO YOUR LIFE TODAY. Stop living the same way and expecting a different outcome. The only positive outcome is a life where Jesus is your personal Lord and Saviour. The choice will always be worth it. 100000/10, absolutely no regrets!

I'm looking forward to welcoming you into the biggest family on Earth. Join me on the better and winning side!

God loves you, and I love you too ❤️

P.S: For those in their waiting season, this one is for you. Don’t lose hope.

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God Still Has Sons

“God still has sons. Your standards aren’t too high”Sometime in December, I was scrolling through my Twitter timeline and I came across a thread by a Christian sister detailing how she was in a relationship that made her compromise her belief concerning total sexual purity. She spoke about how torn she was about the situation then she heard God say “Eniola if you trust me, I’ll show you I still have sons.” I remember reading that line and feeling a tad upset because I believed that because peopl

This is something very rare but one I would do nevertheless. I am dedicating this blogpost to two amazing people in my life.

1. Red: Not only did you design my current blog. You have also edited 97% of all my blogposts since June 2020, even when your workload rivalled the weight of the world. You have come through when it made more sense to not. I do not take the love you show me for granted. I am really blessed to have you in my life and to be able to firstly trust you with one of the truest parts of me knowing you would make it better. Thank you for understanding me even when I do not have the words to accurately express my feelings and editing my posts to convey those emotions. You are one of my favourite people in the world and I wish you a happy birthday today. I hope this year brings everything you’ve ever wished for. Trailer, tanker and caterpillar. Always and forever!

2. Subomi: Seeing you churn out post after post, article after article and doing it even your schedule got crazy changed something in me. It made it easier to breathe, not overthink and just let myself feel. It reminded me that life is a marathon and as long as I kept moving, the finish line was inevitable. For that, I’d always be a fan of you. You are crazily talented, awe inspiring and absolutely gorgeous. Your posts feel like a warm hug after a long day, a frozen treat when Abeokuta sun is showing off and a cool dip in a private pool on a particularly hot day. They envelope me in so much warmth, understanding and patience. Thank you for being my friend, believing in and cheering so hard for me. I love you now and always. There’s no reality for me where we aren’t together and gossiping about boys.

   Guys, please check out Subomi’s substack. You cannot not enjoy it! https://open.substack.com/pub/shugathegift